Still trying to work this 'manifesting' thang....

I have read countless books on the subject and I must say that I heartily agree with this whole 'Positive Thinking' thing. YES, the World looks different when you look at it with love and acceptance-this has been a life changing thing for me.

I'm now experimenting with this 'manifesting your desires' thing (and have been for the last 10 months)....it says you can draw into your life exactly what you want by visualizing it, truly believing in it, living as though it is already there, then releasing the desire for it. Am I misunderstanding something? Because this kinda confuses and frustrates me. In practice, it seems rather that I tend to want something, visualize it, let it go, NOT care if I get it.....then it comes. WHY?!?!?! Can someone tell me what the deal is here? It doesn't anger me or enrage me....but it is amusing and laughable, I must say. The irony of it all...

Can anyone offer a bit of enlightenment on this subject? Help a soul that is seeking....  ;)

Oi vey...whatta week....

Ok, so I've had probably about the sh*ttiest ENTIRE week this past week....it was so tough....lots of tears, rage, anger, sadness, fear, hurt, self-pity and frustration about many things. And it just kept getting more ridiculously crappy as the week progressed. So much so, that I was waiting for Ashton Kutcher and his camera crew to walk out and tell me that I had been Punk'd....but, of course, you have to be famous for that to happen.

I tried to turn inward....I became kinda serious and silent.  Now, this is REVOLUTIONARY for me because I am many things, but silent is not one of them. Sure, the old tendencies popped into my head...I wanted to set something on fire, get in a fight, punch a wall, demolition my apartment, throw something, kick someone, or go postal....but I didn't.

And...
When I was sad, I cried until I couldn't cry anymore.
When I was mad, I allowed myself to be mad (internally) until I was done being mad.
When I was feeling sorry for myself, I allowed myself to wallow in silence until I was tired of that too.

I allowed myself to experience the 'process' of whatever crap feelings came...I didn't try to numb the 'negative' feeling with the usual distractions or 'meds'.... i.e. alcohol, shopping, drugs, drama, partying, sex, religious fanaticism, human sacrifice...or whatever people use to numb themselves from the challenges of Life these days.

And....I'm ok (for now). Don't get me wrong, the week still sucked big-time. But now it's in the past and all I have any power over is the PRESENT, so I have to take care of business. I can't change yesterday and there are no guarantees about tomorrow...I'm here TODAY and that's all I can do anything about. I went through the feelings, I took care of what I can, I accepted the things I can't....and I feel 'lighter' than I usually would have felt after a week like this.

Maybe I'm growing up....haha. :)  I think I may be getting a little ahead of myself, right?

SO, in conclusion...
When those good days come, I'm gonna ride them till the wheels come off. When the bad days come, I'm gonna do my best to put-up and shut-up...until I get my wheels back. :)  (Btw, this is a little twist on a quote from Russell Simmons....)

Have a great weekend....love and peace-

People who live in glass houses...

Making spur of the moment assumptions and perceiving things with only your life experiences as a guideline is a very dangerous thing. "Black and white" judgement of others based on only what we see or hear is a reflection of how far along we truly are on the road to enlightenment...it speaks volumes about us. We are ALL the result of good and bad, mistakes and successes, light and dark...when we accept that in ourselves, we can find faith, understanding and compassion for others.

Peace and Love - wishing you all a beautiful day....

"The magic is inside..."

Last night, my youngest daughter said something profound and beautiful...

We were having one of our many talks about MAGIC and how magic is the power of Love.

She whispered to me "Momma, there's magic in this place." I replied "Where is it?" She pointed to me, then pointed to herself....."It's INSIDE there."  I asked her what color the magic was.  She looked up at me and said "Mommy, it's EVERY color....bhwown (brown), yehyoh (yellow), gween (green), peenk (pink), wed (red) and even bwoo (blue)...."

My soul smiled when I heard that. I don't ever want her to lose that MAGIC.....I always want her to know the power of MAGIC...the power of true LOVE...on everything.

<3 Love to you all....have a beautiful day.

If onlys...

I wanted to share this: 


When we dissolve the need for any "if only's" - we set ourselves free to take the only step that needs to be taken in any moment... that is the next step. Like that journey of one thousand miles beginning with only one step... the journey of any journey - in any moment - requires only the next step. 
- Guru Singh


Wishing you another beautiful day!

1*1*11...a new day!!!

Happy New Year....1*1*11...another beautiful day. Wishing everyone a wonderful year filled with love, peace, success, abundance, and joy....there's enough out there for ALL of us to enjoy!!!!!!  :)