(CONSIDER THIS THE 'CLIFF NOTES' VERSION...if any of you are interested in the whole sha-bang version, let me know and I'll direct you to the link in the magazine it'll be printed in soon...)
Hard to tell when my 'spiritual journey' began, but I tell others that my AWARENESS of being on a journey began 2 years ago. Perhaps it had to do with the disintegration of my marriage, my loss of passion for my career, my age (and aging)...a lot of things were the catalyst, I guess. An old friend told me I said to her one day, very seriously, "I'm going on a Spiritual Journey." When she told me this I replied "What the %*&#?! Does that sound like something I'd say?!" She insisted those were my words, so the drama queen in me will mark that moment as the start of this odyssey.
It began with exploring books, 'New Age' websites and stores...it was overwhelming (and a little weird), to say the least. There seemed to be such a huge gap between living 'of this World' (with a normal job, good family, good friends and a little religion to top it off) and delving head first into the vast sea of New Age. I was SCARED...everyone in this New Age world seemed over the top and, dare I say, a bit 'out there'. Nonetheless, I proceeded cautiously....I created my own little bubble-gum, jimmy-rigged spiritual mission to discover what we are all doing here and, ultimately (& selfishly), how to make myself TRULY HAPPY.
My daily mantra is a quote from Buddha-
"Believe NOTHING, no matter where you read it or who has said it, not even if I have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense."
That being said, the whole World was now open to me - I explored Hare Krishna, Buddhism, Yoga and Yogis, Tarot, Meditation, Wicca, the Bible, ionic, magnetic...EVERYTHING that sparked an interest in me. It was BEAUTIFUL and enlightening. In this buffet of knowledge, I got to serve myself and built a meal of everything that felt 'right' to me. It was the most satisfying 'meal' of my life. I started to watch sunsets, sunrises, birds flying, clouds breaking, grass growing, people living...all with new eyes. When I ceased judgement of what was right and wrong, I found a little lesson in everything.
OK. So, now you've heard the speech and here I am. Desiring to be an 'example', I'm taking the biggest leap of faith I've ever taken to-date in my life (as ridiculous as that may sound) and I'm so proud of my so-called 'brave' act of following my intuition with little/no safety net. As stressful and scary as this all seems, I've never felt so freeeeeeeeeeeee...funny, isn't it?
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